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Thursday, September 4th, 2008
6:50 pm - My Impossible Day was good at the moment, the afterburn not so much.

Last Monday, Labour Day~ I left to go to my job, which is in another town. I bike there usually, and it takes me on average 45 minutes. Upon arriving at workm I look in the front window and see it is closed. At the time I was confused and angry that they did such a thing and didn't tell me, especially with my commute.

I shrugged it off, and took my bike to the beach. I read some of my book on a log under a tree at the shoreline, it was a wonderful moment, (save the fish smell). I then decided to bike along the coast, and I didn't realize it then, but that town is on a set of cliffs, and I was right on the edge looking out over the water. It was really beautiful! I saw couples walking, and picnicing, and dogs and stuff.

I found a waterfront trail through some forest, still on the lake, and I biked it all over, every trail, near the marshes, and across rivers (I had to carry my bike over as I waded through the water).. It was really relaxing, and so seriene. I'd never had such a day..

<i>unfortunately when I got home and checked my messages, I find the restaurant opened at 5.. and I had already left.. and accidently skipped my shift. My boss was so upset, would not forgive me.. and today I lost my job.</i>

But, however, I do not regret that day, because sometimes it is just so great to let your worries go and not think of anything else. I had a clear head for once. Now, I'm going to find a more... local job.

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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
9:59 pm - Wow, it's been over a year?

Over the years I've had some great experiences in the rain. Sitting in a field laughing at others running for cover like the water could do them harm. Walking along the lakefront watching the lightning.

But My favorite time? My impossible day? That happened years ago and it started as a very possible and not that all good day.

It was july and I had convinced my dad to take me to a nearby lagoon to go fishing. Our version of fishing consisted of him standing on the shore using a regular fishing pole while I waded into the water and tried my luck with a net. (There were a few times that I've caught more than him despite all logic.) Being july it didn't take long for me to get over heated but my dad was still having a good time so we stayed a bit longer. Then I started to get really hot and started to complain to dad. He asked if I wanted to go home or go to the playground nearby. I may have been hot but I was still a kid so off the the playground we went. As we got to the playground the weather started to cool down and drizzle a bit. As I always do I went strait for the swings. The rush of wind as I went back and forth always cooled me off so I didn't notice the temperature drop. What I did notice was that the rain got heavier to the point where I was soon soaked and the sound of thunder. It wasn't long before I was cold (not shivering but close), wet, and swinging high on a large metal object in the middle of a thunder storm. It was one of the happiest moments of my life.

Eventually the rain got so cold it turned to hail (or at least it felt like it) and I went back to the car. I ended up going back out for a little while more before finally going home. I've always enjoyed the rain since.

current mood: contemplative

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Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
7:02 am

On the 3rd of july I got up at 4:00 to film the sunrise. I had wanted to do that for a while but at this point I was staying in a place downtown that was only a short walk from the lake. I got to the lake front when I realized I forgot to bring an extra set of batteries. But it Didn't matter. I Got most of it. After I went back to the room and picked up new ones I headed out again. While walking though grant park at about 6:00 in the morning I saw some rabbits eating to flowers the city had planted. A little more walking and I was on the beach. It was empty of people at that time in the morning so I shared the view with some geese. Wandered around some more and ended up at a beach made of broken buildings. Trying to keep my balance on the stones that used to be walls and sidewalks I came across a large slab of concrete with some stones balanced on it. A few feet away was another slab with a crack in it's side with a little plant rising from it. Two picturesRead more...Collapse )

That would have been a good day by itself. But that night I was able to watch to taste of Chicago fireworks show from the room I was staying in.

current mood: contemplative

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Monday, April 24th, 2006
1:24 am

What would you tell yourself, if you were sure you'd listen to your own advice?

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Friday, April 21st, 2006
12:00 am

tomorrow: make a conscious effort to make eye contact with everyone you speak to.

really, try it (especially the ones, like myself, who never do it), it helps you to feel.

(there is a reason behind this post, but its too impossible to put into words)

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3:02 am

What's been impossible about today?

The invincible feeling that comes from being struck deeply with streams of laughter.

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Monday, March 20th, 2006

Post impossible things you want to happen this week.

Anything as strange or boring or whimsical as you like. Simply a wish for the week ahead.

Maybe next Sunday you'll post, a little surprised at your little wish coming true? Who knows!

ps. today i hugged trees in the forest, it felt so fantastic, i didn't even care about the moss all over my jacket!

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Monday, February 27th, 2006
12:13 am - 'It's a carwash, ladies and gentlemen!'

I haven't had a lot of impossible days recently. Every one that started off as if it would be was ruined by something or other.

But today, for a very small reason, i find myself smiling. I went to the pub with some friends. My uni friends. Something that i haven't really been able to say i've had until very recently. I got invited to the quiz night so went along, and the quiz masters didn't turn up so just ended up chatting with them. It was a wonderful evening.

It doesn't seem like much, but at the moment, for me, it was enough to make me smile.

Also, i've got someone else addicted to Hedwig and the Angry Inch. I lent it to him and he watched it three times in a row and loves it! It's nice to be able to share an obsession.

Anyway, sleep. Goodnight, i hope you all have impossible days soon.

current mood: content

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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
10:38 pm - It's been awhile...

Well okay in the spirit of V Day, I send a CD to someone without really knowing the reaction. Okay I was dreading the reaction, thinking it would be bad it kind of lingered with me for most of the day. Anyway I let it go as I couldnt stand it plaguing me any longer and totally forgot about sending it in the first place.

I finally get home after a rather hectic day and check my emails to find one from that person. I held my breath and openned it to find I had recieved the nicest email/note I'd ever been given. It moved me so much I got goosebumps all over. The reaction was more than I had ever expected (even though I was dreading the worst).

It just amazed me how something that could be so insignificant (like a self-made-mix CD), could bring so much happiness to a person, and ineffect make their day the happiest they've had in a long time.

Maybe not an impossible day, but... All I can say is wow.

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9:32 pm - MOD POST


Aw, we now have thirty members... we could be a whole class of dreamers not listening, just looking out the window at the sun.
Thank you to everyone who has joined most recently, I'm truly thankful. As soon as you have somewhere to store away the memories, you'll start to have more and more impossible days.

Happy Valentines day to everyone! Even if you don't really care, it's a little silly and fun really (even when you are single like me). I got given a Valentine's day card from the Evangelical Christian Group at my University today, it was signed in biro "with love, from Jesus". There was something sweet and then odd about it.

My impossible day:

Today the rain was really heavy, then it gave in for a few hours, gave in and then the sky was really shiny blue. In that little window of time before it got murky again I went out to get my exam results from last semester. Today I received possibly the best mark of my whole University career. Also, overall I have never receieved a better crop of exam results across the board. I guess last semester was a good one, then! That made my Valentine's day.

I hope it's been nothing but impossible today.

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3:42 am


Anonymous comment time: post a sentence describing why you cried for happiness or regret or despair... any possible or impossible, anything fictitious or monumental fact just a reason for tears in one sentence

Thank you!

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Sunday, February 12th, 2006
2:19 pm - First Post

The total contentment of being able to curl up in the arms of someone you love.
Knowing that whatever happens that one person wil be there to pick you up and hold you, safe against the world.
Quick kisses in public places.

Cliched, I know.

current mood: content

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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
12:28 am - the first day of spring

The first day of spring, well, it felt like it today. Everyone was so much brighter! The sky was clear in all directions, you could spot the planes in the distance, the flecks of white against the gorgeous blue. Noticing bulbs growing up through the piles of leaves.

Is it spring where you are yet?

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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
12:42 am

coming back from doing laundry

climbing inside of my duvet cover

and sitting inside a little tent of lovely warmth.

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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
12:39 am - Winter Moons

I love full moons in the winter, when there is snow on the ground. Everything is so bright! The light reflects off the snow, and it has such a wonderful quality to it--this thick, icy silver that looks both dangerous and serene. I hope you all get a chance to be somewhere sometime in your lives where it is a full moon and snow is thick on the ground. It is really a magical experience.

current mood: happy

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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
10:45 pm - this is my first post. i hope i dont mess it up

that moment when your friends make you crack a smile after you've been throwing up malt liquor and bile for three hours. yeah, thats it.

i came up with a few good moments today, but i can't remember them.

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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
3:50 pm

I have a crush on a nice young gentleman. Why does this make everything glorious? I'm endulging myself, I'm allowing myself to get taken under by all of the little dreamy thoughts of the life we could have together. It's wonderful. I'm seeing everything he said to me through this crush-filter, all of a sudden everything is meaningful and gorgeous.

I love crushes!

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Monday, December 5th, 2005
1:58 am - Mod says hello!

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

If you haven't already found this, then I'm proud to introduce you:

Post Secret

People send in postcards confessing their secrets. It's a somtimes beautiful and other times a little chilling. Some of the art work is great too. It's updated every Sunday.

Without warning I jumped onto a bus today and went to a museum in the city close to me. Museums on Sundays are even more quiet.

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Sunday, December 4th, 2005
12:00 pm


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